Early Morn`

9:36 am. It was an early morning for me, momma woke me up early to help her do the laundry at 6am. At first, I was too tired to make a move.. until I saw that it was hurting her just to put the clothes in the washing machine, I couldn't bare to see that. So i took over from beginning to end. At that moment, a sudden rush of sad thoughts came to me. Just held back the tears and kept folding the clothes. We got home at 9:00am and i knew i couldn't be home just yet. SO i decided to jog off EVERYTHING that was on my mind. LOL come to think of it, i jogged for like 2 minutes and got tired and just started walking, and then i jogged again and then just sat down on a bench for a good 15 minutes.and jogged for like less than 10? LOL damn

What I lost and what I COULD lose? Is all the thoughts that are in my mind
Losing family members, losing teachers, losing the best i ever had.

I WANT EVERYTHING BACK! I CANT STAND TO LOSE ANYMORE, this year is a losing year. AND I HAD ENOUGH.. AND I MOST DEFINETLY DO NOT want to lose the best woman in the world. Thursday is the day I see what else God has in store for me, till then imma keep praying until something happens..

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"Baby HERE I AM
Im YOUR man girl
I came with everything YOU needed
YOU AND ME are UNDEFEATED
until the end of time
ONE MIND, ONE HEART, ONE LOVE
All you gotta do is,
TAKE MY HAND
WE WILL STAND
THIS WAS MADE TO LAST FOREVER
So lets say it together for the rest of time
ONE MIND, ONE HEART, ONE LOVE"

TREY SONGZ- ONE LOVE

PUSH

just got outta the hospital..

PRAY UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS

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come on GOD, please let it be something light, I already been through ENOUGH THIS YEAR, not this too! please God, please!

CNE!

this is a yearly thing, ya just have to go to CNE!
YESTERDAY, I went to cne with my cousins marie anne, jay, pj, desirae, my brother, kae anne and cassie. Pretty live, considering i always have a highlight when i go there. WELL, this year's high light is.. maybe not so GOOD, BUT i friggen LOST $40 on that stupid, under or over game, and the color game, i started losing with loonies, then i went up 8 $ lost that, and lost 20$ in total, in stupid charmaine's game.. and then went to underover, and LOST another 20$ forever bettin on OVER, i was using loonies atfirst, then i thought i would catch up using 5$ bills. BUT, i went up 15$ dollars, and i got to greedy with it, so then i lost that 15$ + the 5 i was betting with. FML! LOL, everyone lost today, kae anne lost 20$ marie anne lost 22$, desirae lost 15$, pj lost 30$.. ferdie came up with full pockets and left CNE EMPTY, my brother lost NUFFF can't be BLOGGIN the amount, LOL! well in conclusion, we left when the place closed and called it an early night due to the depression of our LOSINGS! LOL! after that, i fell asleep pretty early, i was so tired! the 2 DRUNK people called, AHEM* and a couple of other people LOL, kept bothering me like DAMN!

PS. just wanna say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my girl MARIA! <3

oh damn, school's starting soon! i hope my schedule changes (yn) PLEASE GOD, change my schedule to 1st period SPARE! + gotta go hard the next few days, cause when school comes around. ITS FOCUS TIME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINCEY!

Sunday morning came back from camping. EXTREMLY tired and hungry. momma made us breakfast :) mmm, and knocked out on the couch, then drove to my cousins house in maple, and saw all the houses that were attacked by the tornado :( . and then ate there again, and knocked out again, and then went home and knocked out again. LOL and woke up and 2 mahjong tables were at my house, left to jasons house. and chilled with the gang and played with champ and waiting for 12oclock am to hit. to give vince his present. HIS G- shock watch! HAHA he was smiling. but it was one of those faces that was hard to read, either he was being sarcastic and said that he liked it or he really liked it and didnt want to be over excited. but atleast he doesnt ahev to ask us the time anymore. LOL and bigg upps to baats to making it there ebfore 12! HAHA happy birthday vince!

Camping!

Camping was such an experience! It involves so much damn work, putting up tents and the tarps and all that jazz. but whatevers, my group came prepared and we worked together to make it happen! LOL well what can i say about that weekend? STRAIGHT FUN! PIFF & JUICE all day long. Breakfast, lunch & dinner! First night, we had to set up our tents in the dark cause we got there late. LOL ferdies car died, we raced to whoever could put up their tent first. and claudine and adrian won damnit! and then ferdie, and then ceejay, and then I DIDNT EVEN HAVE A SINGLE CLUE on how a tent works. but ceejay's tent was outta the game from time. HA, his zipper broke so like all kinds of bugs were welcome to their tent. FIRST NIGHT, we attempted to make those SHRIMP chips. but failed, we made other food tho, i forgot! and then everyone came to our side except ashley, cause she was the FIRST TO GET SMASHED AND FUCKED UP. and we ended up making a lot of noise and the security came warned us. gave us a ticket for underaged drinking. LOL 125$? "YOU DONT RESPECT ME" the wonderful repitition of marie anne LOL which SHE GOT SAUCED too because we played crazy 8's and FUCKED HER UP! LOL, it was all adrians fault he was on my right side and marie anne was on my left side. he tried to get me sauced but i had all the proper cards.. THE 2's, the J's, and then QUEEN OF SPADES! LOL i dropped bombs on marie anne and what happened? SHE YAKKKKEEED! LOOOL, 'every man for themself tho' slept at like past 3 am. woke up at 7, made breakfast spam, bacon, eggs, and fried rice. YUM! then we all went to the beach, me and adrian and jeremy went for a swim and tried to reach the BALL that divided the deep end. LOL adrian made it, jeremy was almost there, i was not even half way there and i swam back. my stamina was so bad I WAS SO TIRED and my legs started to cramp i thought iwas gonna die. then we watched them play volley ball and then we left. and showered and head back to the campground. then we started to slowly get drunk. LOL we tried the whole LIQS in the water mellon.. which was hectic.. a bacardi watermelon and then a smirnoff rasberry watermelon. then smoked some SHI SHA! propaa! and then we started tkaing shots of appleton and all that jazz and then we made some SMORES! mmmmmm! so funn, after that nick ferdie and claudine knocked out.. so everyone else.. we went on a walk.. LOL ashley was fucknig gonezo.. so was candice and knocker. i was buzzed but not suaced. HA never that! proper fix tho.. cameback and ashley barfed like right infront of my tent
EW, YUCK! HAHA but other than that pretty fun night. i went back to the tent past 3, and woke up like 10 minutes later. realizing i had to take a doo doo and YAKKED TOO! oh man! LOL

PICS coming soon

So far, So gone!

WELL, summer is almost done, so i gotta make the best of it!

Even though i felt like i wasted half my whole summer in school, i know it'll be worth it in the end. I got to meet new people and saw people i haven't seen for so long. Summer school was pretty fun, well actually i wouldn't know.. me dylon and kanya would fall asleep EVERY CLASS! it was a ritual. First 2 weeks of summer school i was fucking around, I would Go to summer school during the day, sleep after school and wake up and go out. until my teacher told me my midterm mark, i had to step up, so i isolated myself from the world and did everything and finished off with an 80%, woo hoo!

Aside from that, i've accomplished a lot.
-I got my g2 on july 9
-chilled with the gang a lot
-FINALLY chilled with those who called me FLOP ahem* JROB & DARRYL*
-asian tournament 2nd place
-ashley's debut
-etc.. too lazy to name the restt

FML, i lost my ipod! im so sad and depressed. LOL

Other than that, I can honestly say everything's been good, maybe it's just not as good as last summer. BUT, it's good! Just doing whatever it takes to keep my mind off certain stuff. sigh* although, i DO miss last summer a lot.