blaaah

i really dont know why its so damn hard to get through to you
i dont understand why its so damn hard just to say whats really good
i dont know
i dont know
i really dont fucking know

.. im just having a bad day and your not making it any better. till this day i still wonder why im here and why i do these things for you..

Can you stand the rain.

I guess asking you to be there is too much to ask for?
it doesn't even matter to me how distant you are
but you promised you would be there especially when i needed you..
and where are you now?
THATS WHY YOU PISS ME OFF..
but it just goes to show where you really stand..

BUT on my end,
im done trying to be ur friend.. FUCK THIS SHIT!
*shakes head*

ASIDE FROM THAT..

the one thing i relied on through out my whole life.. from day 1.. its weak right now.. there's nothing i could do but just watch as the day progressess

Ya Monkey!

The spunky Monkey is the original party animal! Charming and energetic, Monkeys crave fun, activity and stimulation. They truly know how to have a good time and can often be seen swinging from one group of friends to another, attracting a motley crew in the process. Always upbeat, they are considered minor celebrities in their circle thanks to their sparkling wit and that rapier-sharp mind. Perhaps surprisingly, Monkeys are also good listeners and tackle complicated situations with ease. This Sign's natural curiosity lends it the desire to become knowledgeable on a broad range of topics. Monkeys have a show-off side that loves nothing more than to dazzle their pals with all they know.
The Monkey tends to be rather accident-prone due to a certain lack of very high morals. This Sign's first interest is pursuing its own pleasure; this is not a malicious interest, it's just the way the Monkey is. However, this kind of carefree self-involvement can lead to all kinds of scrapes. In love, the Monkey makes a fun, exciting lover -- but one that may have the potential to stray romantically. The good news is, the Monkey’s glib manner and witty repartee can often get this Sign out of a scrape. Perhaps not everyone will be won over by the Monkey -- but do you think the Monkey really cares? The Monkey's world, full of devil-may-care energy and revelry, isn't for everyone. Remember, though, it's not that this Sign is mean; it might just be a bit too curious for its own good. Monkeys often feel the need to try everything at least once, which can make for a merry-go-round of relationships.
The Monkey's love of self-indulgence can also lead to other types of trouble. This Sign may have limited self-control concerning food, alcohol and other pleasurable activities. It's party time all the time for the Monkey, yet when it leads to a monster hangover or a shattered heart (generally someone else's, not theirs), this Sign might actually show a touch of remorse. They won't flat-out admit the error of their ways, but at least they'll pull back and try to tone things down -- for a while.
Monkeys must try to learn to think of others ahead of themselves, at least some of the time. This Sign's world will be more complete once it realizes the world doesn't revolve around it.

Chlamydia

"There comes a point in life when you get tired of chasing people around, trying to make them happy, and trying to fix everything, but it's not considered giving up. It's realizing that you don't need to put up with the crap of certain individuals"

I'm starting to think im way too nice for my own liking.

ANYWAYS. this quote was taken from one of my girls, and there's only one thing I could say about it, which is, "ITS TRUE". You do all these things because you love someone.

You push away your pride because you try to be there for them like you promised, you try to make them happy, you try to help them when their in need, you always try to make things right, you put them ahead of yourself, you try to give them what they need, and it's all because you LOVE them.

If you express this to another person, they only see it as one thing: they treat you like shit. so then you start to think to yourself "nope. not me! these certain individuals would never do that to me!" Is that really true? Would they really NOT do that to you? But maybe your right, maybe they have no intentions of doing so. But because they're so caught up with other things, they don't realize that they really are treating you like shit. JUST A POSSIBILITY*

With that being said, any possibility comes down to one thing: they shouldn't be doing that to you AT ALL whether they have intentions to or not. (In most cases, they don't have intentions) SO NOW WHAT?

You try to ignore them and move on. BUT, you always end up coming back because you've gotten to know these certain individuals so well and for so long, that you know THIS PERSON IS BETTER THAN THIS.

....... or was it just an act this whole time. BUT REMEMBER: there's always 2 sides of a story.


(catch my drift? Not much to say or do. But I keep my promises. So i'm here to stay and put up with the fuckery. just not the same ways i did)

It is what it is

EFF THAT SHIT!

let the games begin.. lets just spoil myself for a bit

What cha think?

Good things happen to those who wait

OR

waiting is a luxury afforded to those who knew the person they were expecting would show up



What do you think?

whateva.. i can't help but wait
im kinda excited to study for exams. DONT ASK ME WHY!

hmm hmm

this is the dumbest isu i've ever done in my life.
WRITE A SHORT STORY. i don't even know how to write a story..
this is pissing me off.. but then again..
it's my fault cause i procrastinated so now im home again.. trying to finish it up
ANYWAYS..

NOTE:
if your doing this because of why I think your doing this. YOUR FUCKED! lol isn't this what you wanted though? i don't get it.. i hate when this shit happens cause it makes me feel like im annoying you cause i'm annoyed myself for doing what i gotta do to get through to you..this is messed up.. TELL ME WHAT I GOTTA DO TO PLEASE YOU. dont just leave it like this.....

I just wanna inform you that..
when you got somebody good, YOU HOLD ON TO THEM!

Lyfe Jennings- Must Be Nice(8)